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Saturday, December 05, 2009
love ;; lovedd
ii wish wad they said will never happen
im tiredd , drained .
retreating was nv meant for me .
ii triedd so hard .. and even harder than ii tot .
budd still , love have never found its way to me .
ii've lost it.
how sad ...
labels : iwishitwasntyou .


11:30 AM
&& your love is all ii ever need


Thursday, December 03, 2009
okay.. i'm not suppose to be here now.
'cos i've tons of things to do .
budd im not feeling that good .
Car Prac wasnt that bad last night .
Talk bout that, Boyfriend actually forget about it ,
even thou ive been talking about it since last week .
feeling very bit disappointed .
I know he didnt mean to .
He's busy. . .

Tons of stuffs have been happening .
im not very sure we can make it .
WE , ii emphasize .
I seriously need QUALITY time with Boyfriend .
though ii shouldnt be saying this.
im not so much of a 24/7 girlfriend.
ii've never like that.
Boyfriend's not with me at times,
be it im talking or whatever .
He dun seems to be concentrating .
cept , playing game .
DAMN TH FUCKING PERSON WHO INVENT IT ! roar !

ii seriously dun wanna start on this issue .
im like starting to lose it.
&& you're starting to lose th balance as well .

labels : feel it double to be th one .

I'll update next week when im free .


3:41 PM
&& your love is all ii ever need


Monday, November 30, 2009
apologies
i'm damn bloody busy this week .
i'll be able to update only next week .
stay tune , peeps !
a lil review ...
my love ;;
Happy 7th month , honey !
labels : its all more than words .


11:59 PM
&& your love is all ii ever need


Tuesday, November 24, 2009
ii need a million dollars !
getting giddy easily.
ii need to start saving .
no! ii dun have ample to save .
ii need to spend wisely. ii need to be strong .
just a few more months .
bear with it ! ii know ii would be able to .
or rather , ii have to .
now, its not only th end of th month thingy,
is to plan which and which to pay upon getting pay.and end up ,
i've nv get to give mom allowance. ii feel bad, very.
ii hate spending th end of year like this .
i've nv been in this kinda state, this pathetic .
just treat it as im having super bad luck this year.
ii was thinking of holding up another PTJ .
budd ii dunn wanna lose out th real "Gold" in life, Time.
Time with Mom , all my precious friends and Boyfriend.
iim gonna buck up for year 2010 .
ii will get all th stuffs in my top wishlist before next year.
before th end of world in year 2012 !
label : CHARGE ~~ !


8:40 PM
&& your love is all ii ever need


Wednesday, November 18, 2009
ii wish that what i'm doing now is my interest.
ii wish that what i'm doing now gimme some motivation.
ii wish that ii could be more busy , (not with super boring stuffs of cos!) ,
just to keep my mind off from Boyfriend .
ii dun like it this way. ! ii simply hate it.
struggling whether to go for th kitty's lab or not..
ii feel like ...
shopping
mj-ing
singing
drinking
clubbing
holiday-ing !
labels : ii hate missing Boyfriend !
tag reply :
peggy - next will be on th 23rd ! hmmm, would love to go drinking with you lahs. budd this week a bit not free . hahas. i'll text you again ? ;loves.
Ford - very soon ! &&& im replying nowwww .. busy lahhs , dey !
dine - hahas. i'll help you look out , as promise ! (:
chris - thanks babe ! glad to see you smiling more already . especially with your guy around. take care too. =D
yingying - ya lors. bo bian . just meet at 8 lors. jiayous arhhs ! hahas. why th condom thingy will remind you of KY ?


10:45 PM
&& your love is all ii ever need


updates !
alright . ii knw its time to update.
tons and tons of stuffs, therefore i'll try to keep it as short as possible. (crossed-finger)
starting of th month, New and MsTay's wedd .
think ii gotta change her name to Selina Tay .
picture above, see what ii mean ?
Reach her house in th morning, and as usual , all th stupid stuff.
Th video of us "torturing" th groom , is on facebook . hahas.
Ending with buffet from Stamford , and they're living up with their name, serving nice and wide variety of dishes.
went home to pick up my dress for dinner, Boyfriend's home , then slp !
woke up in th evening , set off for Dinner and last all th way to late night .



and th rest of th week's normal until I failed BTT on Saturday ! Damn it !
went for Baby Trina 's first month at CCK , for continuous two days.

Met up with Brian's and click at BQ .
To chill , watch soccer , as usual, and celebrate Boyfriend's birthday with a cake.
Ended th tiring day after that .
In addition , I've got a awesome birthday countdown with Boyfriend before that. =D

Boyfriend's birthday falls on a Monday !
But I was on leave , ii think . Come to think again, I wasnt . hahas!
Knock off and went to look for Boyfriend,
met up with Joe and Guan , tgt with ZhenWei ,for dinner .
Perfect weather for steamboat that night . (:

Work ? as usual ! ZZZ !
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until....Friday !
Supported Clarissa at th pub she's working at .
Boyfriend after dinner time ,
Chilled with Serene and friends at my so call fav pub. =D

Went down to 12 element one of th days cos zihui's celebration.
saw another friend again . LOL .
Anyway , th place have entended all th way to lvl 3 .
Not that cramp anymore.
People there that night were either GONE or GRUMPY ! hohoho~
Oh, and ii cant imagine ii actually talked to some PLK .
making me feel so disgusted !
Bathe with Dettol when I've got home .
th tot of touching th same deck of cards disgust me .
P/S : I really dislike girls whom dun treasure themselves , intentionally .!

I've ease th majong itch over th weekend !
Jev 's getting a bit too crazy when she's tired !


10:22 PM
&& your love is all ii ever need


Sunday, November 15, 2009
ii really gotta admit this .
ii was in great pain .
its just like a stab in th heart.
feeling th pain ,
bleeding profusely ,
and fianlly , NUMB !
labels : ii find no reason .


10:30 PM
&& your love is all ii ever need


Saturday, November 14, 2009
lots of tots
somethingg ii wanted to blog long ago.

a few questions asked ,
ii hestitaed ,
den stopped at th critical one .
ii wasnt afraid that th answer(s) is/are hurting .
'cos ii still wanna believe your "everythingg happens for a reason."
labels : thou ii knw im not .
ii feel like eating something
that would be able to cheer me up now
- 17049090


9:46 PM
&& your love is all ii ever need


Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Dreams / Reality
Churning out my resume last night was tough .
Realised that there wasnt any relevant point to fill them in, especially th column of "about myself" .
Feeling so lost ,
ever since mum stop me from taking up design, choreography or even th fashion thread as a job .
Th reasons she gave were reasonable, I gave in .
'cos I know what she wan was th best for me .
UNLESS , I can be a good one ,
to be like Alexander McQueen or Coco Chanel, standing at th tip top of th world ,
to be like Jimmy Paul or David Gan ,having all th magic in his hands ,
to be like Jillina, having th chance to stand on th stage that belongs to themselves, especially in London.
NO , I DOESNT BELONG TO ONE OF THEM .
I'd wished i wont regret .

Yes , I was typing resume , meaning , I'll be leaving SP .
its kinda sad isnt it ?
There's too many reason for me not to leave.
Mum will be losing her job anytime .
Dad's doing pretty well , but health deteriotating .
One doesnt knw how to appreciate parents' hard earned work just to bring us up .
One 's in deep shit .
Does anyone understands th feeling of being stuck in between dream and reality .
I GAVE UP , STRUGGLING .
I wont wan my kins to be suffering , be it now or in th future .

I feel like crying ; shouting ; screming
singing ; dancing ; chilling ; majong-ing ; swimming ; eating ; outings !
to let myself off for a break from everythingg's on my mind .
P/s : with you .

labes : Dreams / Reality , Screw it !


9:29 PM
&& your love is all ii ever need


ii dont wanna slp without you !
Love is when you dont want to sleep ,
'cos reality is better than dream .

and so , boyfriend wont smack my head 'cos ii stayed up late and was almost late for work today.

P/s : I'll update tmr . its too late nowwwwwww.

labels : hearts you ; hearts me ; hearts it !


12:28 AM
&& your love is all ii ever need